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Pray and Don't Panic

I can vividly recall the first time I had a panic attack. I honestly thought I was having a heart attack, except for the fact that every time I opened my mouth no sound came out. It felt like a freight train had slammed into my chest and I started shaking really bad. My palms were sweaty and I literally could not breathe. I suffered through these attacks at various times throughout the year for years. Every time I experienced an attack, I prayed because I did not know what else to do. For a very long while, I didn't tell anyone what I was experiencing. My silence was due to not knowing what was happening to me as well as the fear of hearing that I was crazy. Mental illness was hereditary on my maternal side and I spent most of my early adult years praying that I would not have some kind of diagnosis that I was not aware of. Ultimately, I would become diagnosed with a form of post-traumatic stress syndrome that was unrelated to anything hereditary. My diagnosis had everything to do with things that had happened and were happening in my adult life up to that point.

It is August 22nd, 2020. Consider everything that has happened this year. Consider things that are still happening. How are you handling life right now? How are you managing your mind each day? I am asking because I am certain many of us has experienced some kind of panic attack this year; you may be in the middle of one right now while reading this. Now that we are on a transparent playing field, consider how you have responded to the moments you have lost control this year. I can tell you that I did what I always do: I prayed. When in doubt and when all else fails, my prayer is the most powerful, immediate weapon I have available. Prayer has not failed me yet. Each time I've found myself down to nothing but prayer I became more convinced and encouraged that in the midst of this all God is indeed up to something. Quite frankly much of what God is doing is unfolding before our very eyes each day, our heart-posture determines how and if we receive it.

I want to encourage you today to consider your prayer life. Take note of when you use the greatest weapon God has made available to us. Consider when you use it, how you use it, or if you have ever used it at all. No matter our age, no matter our past, no matter our present, prayer power is something we all have the ability to possess. Prayer is an attribute of surrendered trust and trust is what activates your faith. Prayer is what fuels your inner peace. Pray is what breaks through barriers and can single-handedly turn any situation around. Prayer is a righteous intervention. As I say so often on social media, I KNOW this for myself. The next time panic shows up, Pray. The next time anger shows up, Pray. The next time heartache shows up, Pray. The next time uncertainty shows up, Pray. We are all experiencing the same intense moments differently yet it is our response to it all that should consistently remain the same. Desperate times do not call for desperate measures, they call for prayer. Serve any circumstance with prayer and your rest will follow. Know that as I am typing, I have already said a little prayer for you.

Healing Is A #HeartPosture ~ Kesh C.


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